seriously jealousy is the worst emotion
you’re not only really sad but you’re really annoyed and helpless at the same time
and you feel pathetic like you’re ruining people’s fun but don’t want to be left out so you just sit around quietly annoyed
We’re taking a nice and comfortable trip where we both doesn’t know how, when, and where it’ll ends. You’re the driver and here I am really enjoying my position on the passenger seat.
The road is nice, the ride is great and I do love road trip.
But we should know where we want to end up then. I don’t know where; you’re the driver. Maybe you know.
It’s like hanging on a thin thread, all I do is waiting for myself to fall, which is hurt. I don’t know why am I still here, trying to hold on with the strongest grip. That thought of giving up, believe me, comes up everytime. “I must keep myself not to make another scar.” I told myself. This risk I have to take is too much compared by all the sacrifices I ‘ve made and the heartbreaks I’ve experienced. But I still standing here, not planning on making a single move. Still here, with the highest expectations that someday the luck will be on my side. Still here, trying to give the best I have. Still here, hoping that the conditions will eventually change. Still here, trying not to cry. Still here, standing tall, stay. Still here, trying to figure out the reason why.